Hey..
o yay its fathers day..the day that comes once a year when you spent time with your dad and buy him presents..well this year thats not ganna happen or be the same..its never ganna be the same...because i dont even have a dad..i dont know who he is..where he is..or anything about him infact..so tomorrow is just ganna be a normal day.. what am i sposta do..get up in the morning and say to a guy Happy Fathers Day..even though your not my dad or anything but hey yeah lets just pretend for today just to make everyone else happy..as you may have already guessed im not in the best mood right now..i had a fight with my mom because she wants me to buy Rick a fathers day present..and i said i wasnt going to because he isnt my dad..even thought he may have been around when i was little and shit i still dont think i have to thank him for anything and buy him a present..i mean come on..he treated me like shit..just because i wasnt his kid..he says he takes all it back but then 10 mins later he throws it all back in my face again..im not going to put up with his shit anymore.. im so annoyed...
Hope every1 has a great day with there dads and family Happy Fathers Day
...Happy Fathers Day Dad... 

Ryan.
Amz, you are so beautiful..i miss you heaps!! thankx for everything  i love you babe! xxx

Hey, i havnt been on in a while..bcos i needed to get away from everything..yeah not that anyone would have taken any notice...well ive been thinking about alot l8ly..my mom and jake want me to move back home, (im staying with my mate at the moment) but i dont know if i want to, jake said rick (step dad) wants to start over with me, and try and be "mates"...hmm dont think it will work out as good as he plans it to but...i also have been thinking about my relationship with Amz, i havnt talked to her in agers!, and i dont even know if we are still together..i still really like her, but who knows if she feels the same, so amz if u read this can u please t-mail me or leave a comment or somthing to let me know what you want to happen..ill understand if you dont like me anymore..bcos i have been a bit of a ass..im sorry!
well im out..bye...

Hey Amber here!! :) for those of you who dont know me im Ry's cousin, Ry is still asleep, how lazy is he! i mean come on its 1:30 in the afternoon! and he was ment to go to school! watta lazy shit! actually i think he was suspended, he is always bloody gettin suspended! ima kick his ass next time he get suspended!

Message to Amz-
Hello Amz!! how are ya darls?! hope your doing good :) well i might speak to you soon..not that Ry lets me talk to you when you to talk :( bye sweetie!! xxx

Hehe im making his blog colourful!! :) he's probably going to delete this entry anyways..RUDE! but oh well, ill just have to write another 1 if he dus :)

Well then im off, im ganna go wake Ry up because im bored!
talk later

Love Amber!! xxxxxxxx!

Hey,
Wow i havnt posted in agers...you could say ive been kinda busy..school holidays at the moment and ive been stayin with my mates at Blake n Cam's "holiday" house..we had a few parties got pissed and just the usal stuff, lmao me Jake and Cam tryed to set Zoe and Blake up but it just wouldnt happen! they wanted each other bad you could tell! lol oh well its there fault they didnt hook up.
My mom has gone away for a week with my aunty :) :) :) PARTIES hehe.. but my cousin Amber is here..she is ALWAYS here..but she isnt annoying me 2night..well yet anyway.. she thinks she is ganna stay the whole week with me and jake bcoz she dont trust us..meh oh well lol she brought a pink hat when she went shopping and ive been wearing it, its a cool hat! im ganna steal it :) muahaha pink is just so my colour :P god im a fool!
 
hmm i think im missing sumthing here..is amz like gone or sumthing? bcoz ive been told sum1 was on her account saying stuff n yeah..i was talking to amz on msn (might not have been her) and she was acting a bit funny..like saying "no1 cares about her" and other stuff..i tryed telling her that there are alot of people that care about her but she would listen to me :( i was pretty upset with some of the stuff she was saying, putting her self down, she knows we all love her! :) and we would never hurt her
Well ive gotta go talk soon
AMZ I MISS YA! I DONT KNOW IF THAT WAS YOU ON YOUR ACCOUNT BUT IF IT WAS REMEMBER WHAT I SAID!!..NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND BE HERE FOR YA! YOUR SO BEAUTIFUL :) hope to talk to ya soon! love you!

Ryan...

Hey!!..
after school yesterday me, Zoe and Will were waiting for the bus..and out of all people Ellie showed up..and she came up to me and started talking to me..or shud i say trying to start another fight..and she was complaining that i dont ever ring or message her back..and den Zoe said " Maybe he dont wanna talk to u!" den Ellie said "shut the fuck up no1 asked u"..i was trying not to laugh..then Ellie started complaining again.. and Zoe started to piss her self laughing bcoz half the shit Ellie was saying didnt make any sence..den Ellie said to Zoe "what the fuck are you laughing at u dumb fucking scrag" Zoe said back to her "You! ur making no sence ur a fuckin dumb bitch!" and den Ellie said 2 Zoe " shut the fuck up just coz ur jealous that i was with ryan and u neva have and neva will be with him bcoz he dont want u! he dont go 4 ugly sluts like you, ur a stupid fucking ho whos fucking ganna get the shit kicked outta them if u dont fucking close ur mouth" then Ellie looked at me and said "You know what! i went and saw Jake in hospital..now i think maybe it shouldnt have been Jake" Then Zoe barged past me and Will and started bashing the fuck outta Ellie! it was so good!..Ellie tryed to fight back..she only hit Zoe once or twice..maybe she will leave me alone now!
hahaha we saw her walking past the school at lunch time 2day and she had a fucking masive black eye and a cut on her face..haha and the cut was probly from Zoes ring.. oh well shit happens..
well im off
Ry..
LOVE U AMZ!

Hey...
Im bored..i was ganna go to a party 2night but i cudnt be bothered...dont really feel like going out anywhere and plus Ellie was ganna be dere..  Ellie fuckin shits me! we had another fight bcoz she was saying i shud have gotten over all the shit that went on by now and she said it is my fault she is on drugs and its my fault she use to slit her wrists! and its my fault thats she is like this...she likes to blame shit on me! nothing she did was my fault! she chose to be a druggie and i didnt make her slit her wrists..just bcoz i broke up wit her dunt mean she had to slit her wrists so she cud blame me for it..she is outta controll

yeh Jake comes home in a few days..i miss havin him around..its been really quiet with out him here...i went and saw Jake the other day after he had his nose fixed..and he was in alota pain and i was starting to think it shuda been me insteda Jake and its kinda my fault bcoz dad asked me to stay at his joint for a few more days but i said no and told him to ask Jake to stay..so its kinda my fault and it was ment to be me in the crash insteda Jake..
Im so tired..havnt been sleeping much l8ly..wen i go to bed i just lay there thinking about Amz, My dad, Jake, All the shit thats going on with Ellie and heapsa other stuff..
Why do i always get blamed as soon as something goes wrong??
Ryan...

AMZ I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!! I REALLY NEED TALK TO U
YOU AND VERA ARE THE ONLY 2 THAT MAKE ME LAUGH N SMILE..USE 2 ARE THE BEST!
LUV U AMZ! AND VERA UR  AWSOME! THANKX!

Hey peepz!
Yeh well i went to my dads 4 a while..it was alrite but still pretty bad..

Worst thing happened 2 me the other day!!!!
i was with my mates at the sk8 park and sum chick came up bhind me and covered my eyes and said "guess who" and i had no bloody clue who it was she took her hands off my eyes and i turned to see who it was and it was Ellie..(My ex girlfriend)...yeh well i didnt really xpect to see her around bcoz she told me she moved away..i was so shocked..she told me she had moved back here and she was livin with her friend..i thought ok fair enuf..we all went for a walk and she was asking me all these questions and things were a bit weird..she started talking about wen we were together and how much "fun" it was..well i wudnt really call it "fun"..ya see..she was on drugs, and she use to go tarting around and end up waking up in bloody guys house's (who were like heaps older) ..she kept telling me nothing happened..and i was stupid enuf to believe her..bcoz i trusted her..and then all this other shit went on it was pretty bad an yeh we broke up n she liked moved away and we neva spoke again...and anyways my mates ended up leaving me with her..and i had to walk her home..we didnt talk much at all..we got to her house and she went inside and i went home..it was so bad! later on that nite she called me and was telling me how much she missed me and all this other bull shit and she wants to be friends with me..then we ended up having a huge fight ova the phone bcoz i didnt wanna be friends with her..she had wrecked my life enuf already! yeh well she called me every name under the sun..but i dont care bcoz i dont want friends like her anyways..

yeh well thats it..bye
ryan

AMZ I MISS U SOOOO MUCH BABE! :( I CANT WAIT TO TALK TO U!! :) LOVE U!!

MISS U AMZ! I LOVE U SOOO MUCH BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! L HOPE EVETHING IS GOING GOOD J TALK TO U SOON!

hey!
went to the movies yesterday..these 2 chicks sat in front of us and they kept turnin around and wud start talking to me and my mate and then 1 of the girls kept throwing popcorn back at us.. so me and my mate were throwing it back at em..lol we were throwin the popcorn they threw at us back bcoz we didnt buy any popcorn..they soon gave up and put the popcorn on the seat next to em..since we didnt have any popcorn i put my hand b/w the seat and stole there popcorn then later on they were sittin there all quiet and my mate tiped the whole bucket of popcorn ova there head.. it was so funny!!..when the movie finished we were standing out the front and my mate was havin a smoke and 1 of the chicks came up to him and asked "can i bum a fag?" and then my mate said back " you can bum all the faggs u want..dont bother me" ahh it was a pissa..
hmm im thinkin about gettin my other nipple peirced now..but iunno..i miss amz :( :( i want her too come back 
well thats all i have tp say 4 now..
byeeeee!!!!!

i have so many thoughts going through my head rite now..such as why did i do it, dus she still want me, dus she hate me, will she eva talk to me again, why do i have to screw everything up, will things get better or worse, and so on..i dont know the answer to any of those questions..why do bad things always happen to me...my mom and dad r thinking about spliting up and if they do my dad wants to take jake with him to live in America so i wont be seeing my own brother much..Another 1 of my close mates mite b moving away to perth..and i doubt i will be seeing him again if he moves..ive been suspended from school so many times i cant really remember how many times..ill probly be kicked out soon..yes well my life is shit and i dont know when it will b better..only time will tell..well bye..
:( amz im soooo sorry :(
Ryan

hi..
went to a mates party on saturday nite and i got pissed as..and then i got told about sumthing i did..i done sumthing that i shudnt have done..i feel really bad bcoz i neva thought i wud be that low and do sumthing like that..i dont know if this person will 4give me or not..arghh i wish it neva happened..
arghh im so STUPID!!!!

AMZ IM SORRY!! I LOVE U HEAPS! I NEED TO TALK TO U..IM SORRY!!!!!!! :(

Ryan...

Hey!!..
Long time no see ey.. well yeh i havnt been online bcoz i was suspended from school 4 bashing sum kid 4 calling one of my close friends a slut and so on..Which i had recently bashed 2 weekends ago..but he started annoying her and making her upset again..ive been suspended since Thursday..and i have to go back to school 2morrow..oo lol..my cousin came ova the other day and she had just been shopping and she brought some wax to wax her legs..but she was to scared to try it on herself 1st..so she decided to pick on me..i was asleep on the couch so she put the wax on my leg and ripped it off..worst way to be woken up..sum1 waxing ur leg..yeh so i had a patch on my leg where there was no hair..she kept complaining that i looked weird with a patch of hair missing on my leg so she just waxed both of my legs..im NEVA doing that again!..

AMZ! I HAVNT 4GOT ABOUT U! IM REALLY SORRY :( I MISS U HEAPS! ILL BE HERE B4 U LEAVE 4 YA HOLIDAY..IF U HAVNT LEFT ALREADY AND ILL BE HERE AFTER! :) LOVE U HEAPS BEAUTIFUL!! TALK TO U SOON! BYE!!

Ryan... :) :)

hey..
i havnt been online 4 agers..ive been at my mates house 4 a while..bcoz me and my old man rnt getting along again..we had a fight and he went to hit me..so i ran out of the house and caught a train to my mate Mattys house..he is my one of my best mates that moved away..so my mom rang his parents to see if i was there..and yeh they found me and they asked me why i was there and i told them i was staying there for a few days bcoz i didnt wanna be around my dad...well yeh i got home like 2 days ago and my dad wasnt here and i was woundering where he was..then mom told me he went to stay at his brothers till he can learn to treat me jake and aleisha betta...he still hasnt come home..and to tell u the truth i dont really want him to come home..its so much better with out him here..well yeh no1 reads my blog anyway so thats it..
Amz i really miss u =( hope i talk to u soon..i love u
Ryan

Hey...
im bored...nothing too do..my moms gone to stay at my aunties and me Jake and my little sister are stuck here with my old man...he is a asshole..this is shittin me so much! blames me 4 everything, thinks i dont care bout any1 but myself! i hate him! i was ganna go sumwhere 2nite with Jake but i cant...bcoz asshole wants to go sumwhere so me and Jake have to stay home and look after Aleisha (lil sis) arghh ok well yeh im ganna go...ill try and find sumthing too do...
bye
love ya amz..miss ya
Ryan...

hey....
yeh well things have been pretty shit l8ly..there might be sumthing wrong with some1 i love and its not good....so ive been pretty down l8ly...ive told zoe bout it and yeh she helped cheer me up and i was happier..but now im back home and im back to being unhappy and worried...oh well there might not even be anything wrong with this person but still there is a chance there is..yeh...i miss amz =( ...ok well i think dats all i have too say..no1 even bothers to read it anyways....
bye
love ya heapz amz!
ryan..

helloo!
hmm..yeh well i went back to school 2day =( it was bad! real bad! lol nah it wasnt really that bad...just kinda boring... I MISS AMZ!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(
o yeh! hehe 1 of ma cats ran away and neva came bak! YAY! haha i kno that sounds a bit mean but i dont like cats...well my cats..they always hurt me! lol there feralz! AND i didnt have to go to my cousinz party!!! =) hehehe bcoz i went away with Jason to stay at Matty's house....lol well yeh his parents made him move away...bcoz there mean!..lol nah i dont really kno y and we meet dese chickz and one of em liked Jason haha...yeh well we pretty much just went out and did...stuff lol and Matty's parents are pretty strict so we had to be bac at like 11:30!..we went home and waited till his parents went too bed witch was bout 12:10 and we jumped out his window too go meet the girls and sum of Matty's friends down at the beach...we didnt take much notice of the time untill it was like 5:30 and we had to get back too Matty's house b4 6:15 bcoz thats when his parents got up 4 work so we had to run all the way bak too Matty's house and we got to his house just as his parents got out of bed..so we had too go bak thro the window and pretend to be asleep and then Matty's mum came into the room and noticed that me and Jason were sleeping in Matty's room when we were sposta sleeping in the guest room..i dont think she thought anything of it just probly thought we were up 4 a while talking and must have fallen asleep in his room...well yeh that was my exciting holiday!! and dats all i have to say...
love ya amz!! i miss u =(
Ryan...

Hey :)
hehe yeh ive been on holidays 4 a week now... :( only 1 week to go then we have to go bak to skool..yeah well i had to look after my 3 year old sister again 2day..see im so nice i stayed home and looked after her...lol i was trying to teach her how to ride a sk8 board hehe it was cute...but she wudnt go to bloody sleep!..she is ment to have a sleep in da arfternoon but she wudnt..oh well
on friday i went to the melbourne show with my mates jake and his mates..it was pretty good got a bit bored but.. :shock: sum chick came up to me and asked me 4 my numba...i just looked at her and laughed and walked away...she had neva seen me b4 in her life and she asked me 4 my numba..hmm
going to a party 2morrow nite but i was invited 2 milla's and alannah's party and there both 2morrow...and i told milla i wud go to her party but if i dont go to alannahs she mite crack it...but i dont talk to alannah that much...mite as well just go to millas...oh well ill figure it out later...arghh i just remembered its my cousins birthday on tuesday..she's ganna be 19.. she piss's me off..so annoying!!
ok well i think thats all i have to say...
byeeee!!
♥ ya amz miss ya heaps too!! xoxo
Ryan

Hey!!
Well when i was walking home from school with ma mates there was this girl standing at the bus stop waiting 4 the bus..and when i walked past her she looked at me and said "hey sexy"...i was like umm...hi lol i didnt even kno her..she really scared me..she was really weird..oh well i guess there are people like that in the world these days...
On friday nite i went to the movies and saw white chickz..haha its a good movie..made me laugh...lol yeh after the movie some peoples came back to my house and we went for a walk..we ended up at zoe's house..lol we just mucked around at her place went home at around 2ish...yeh ma mates were to tired to walk home so they just crashed at my house..bloody little shits! came in and woke me up at like 9:00 with textas they were bloody drawing on my face..i just layed there pretending to be asleep...lol they drew a dick on ma face! bloody fuck heads!
ohh haha we tried to make pancakes aswell...but yeh they didnt really work...they were a bit burnt..hahaha so then we just made toast..lol toast is the only thing i can make..lol well toast and 2 min noodles..haha :)
yeh...we went and rode our bikes around 4 a while...hahaha! and my mate got his jeans cought in the chain on his bike it was a pissa!we just rode off on him haha but we came back...about 10 minz later...lol im so mean.. well yeh that was my weekend..how exciting!!
i miss amz =(
♥ ya amz!!
Ryan

im so tired i had sum mates over lastnite and they didnt go home till like 5:30am and i didnt go to bed till like 7:00am coz i was talking on the phone to Kelly and Kat they wudnt let me go to sleep and i got woken up at 11:00 coz i had to go to my auntys...it was shit! lol in the car i just ignored every1 and curled up into a ball in put my hood on listened to ma diskmen and went to sleep...bloody only got 1 hour sleep anyways and then at my auntys i was stuck with my annoying cousins...they are all between the age of 11-14 and they were annoying the shit out of me i got stuck with the little 1...he is only like 6 he is cute but annoying coz he kept making me play games with him and all i wanted to do was sleep... yeh so that was my day it was like so exciting..

well im goin now im ganna go to sleep! bye

amz is beautiful...i miss ya amz  hope i talk to ya soon babe! xoxo